Trying, Failing, and Peanut Butter-Date Energy Bites

Snacks, Vegan
Oats in a measuring cup, a glass jar of cinnamon and one of peanut butter, dates, and a bottle of vanilla sit on top of a wooden surface in front of a white wall.

I’ve been thinking about failing a lot lately, probably because it feels like I’ve had a higher-than-average spat of kitchen flops. There was the mushroom-leek soup with parsley dumplings the approximate weight of a collapsing star, the sourdough bread that didn’t rise, and the chocolate-cinnamon-pecan tart that led to an impromptu oven cleaning. Suffice it to say, the past few weeks of cooking have not been kind to me.

I don’t mind a kitchen failure or two; it’s just part of recipe development and growing as a cook. What I do mind is a failure that begets no lesson, so after mishap number three I spent some time considering what had gone wrong. Sure, there were issues specific to each dish, but there was one that was common to them all: I wasn’t really there.

Obviously I was in my kitchen physically, but mentally I was a million miles away during each of those fiascos, chewing over what had happened at work or rushing through cooking so I could get on with something else. My experience reminded me of everything that Ann Patchett said in this lovely little essay, which with hubris I will boil down to one sentence: if you want to do a task well, just do that task. While cooking or baking, do not start a serious conversation with your partner about how their day was; do not also open your mail; do not throw in a load of laundry, or even think about doing so. For however long it takes to cook the thing you’re cooking, just do that.

I am a person who believes that every minute of the day should be productive so calmly waiting for the onions to turn translucent over medium heat is a bit torturous because shouldn’t I just check my work email one more time? But to avoid future food failures, I made myself take a step back. I committed to spend 20 minutes doing only one thing, cooking, and started over with a simple recipe. I measured out all of my ingredients before I started, just as you’re supposed to do and I often skip over, and paid attention. I was rewarded with a not-flop—in fact a resounding success—to sustain me on the busy days when it seems that it will be impossible to do just one thing.

A laptop, keys, and cell phone lay on a metal surface, along with peanut butter-date energy bites and dates, all scattered with whole oats.

Peanut Butter-Date Energy Bites

Source: I Thought There Would Be Free Food

Makes ~20 bites

Total time: ~20 minutes

Ingredients:

  • 3/4 cup old-fashioned oats
  • 1 teaspoon ground cinnamon
  • 1/2–1 teaspoon salt, to taste
  • 10 ounces dried, pitted dates
  • 1/2 cup peanut butter (I used natural, but other varieties should work as well)
  • 1 teaspoon vanilla extract

Directions:

  • Halve the dates, then set them aside.
  • Put the oats, cinnamon, and salt in the bowl of a food processor and process until the oats are finely ground into uniform nubs.
  • Add the dates, peanut butter, and vanilla extract and process until a cohesive mixture forms. You might need to stop and scrap down the sides of the food processor once or twice.
  • Grab a small handful of the mixture and tightly compress then roll into a ball. You may need to compress the mixture once or twice before rolling, or it will crumble a bit; you should end up a Ping Pong-sized ball. Repeat as needed.
  • Place the finished bites into a seal-able container and let them firm up in the refrigerator for at least 30 minutes before enjoying.

Butternut Squash and Kale Tacos with Cashew Crema

Entrees, Vegan
Three stripes of butternut squash, raw cashews, and kale run diagonally across a wooden cutting board.

I spent a lot of time in Nairobi for my previous job—nearly a year, all told. It was an easy place to be, vibrant and beautiful, with burgeoning food and design scenes, and I enjoyed my time there. But spend that much time away from home and you’re bound to suffer some homesickness, no matter how much you come to enjoy ugali or kachumbari.

Homesickness is a strange thing. Sometimes it’s as simple as missing a person or a place, and there were many days when I missed my partner and our cozy routines. Other days, however, my homesickness took different turns; I would find myself yearning to wear a particular sweatshirt, or wishing I could go for a run along my favorite route. And sometimes my homesickness got downright peculiar, and I found myself craving Mexican food. At home, I might have had Mexican a few times a month, but in Nairobi, it was all I wanted to eat. Somehow it was a symbol of home, something unattainable in a place where I could get most any other type of cuisine or creature comfort. Common sense and rationality didn’t diminish the craving, so when a taco stand opened in my Nairobi neighborhood, I found myself there constantly, chomping down on black bean or chicken tacos to assuage my homesickness for the people and things I missed most.

Of the many tacos I ate in Nairobi, the one I loved the most was filled with squash and kale, topped with a lemony cashew crema. It’s the one that I plotted to make again when I returned home. Now that I’m back, it’s gone from being a cure for homesickness to a connection to a place I grew to love.

A corn tortilla sits on a white surface. The tortilla is spread with a creamy cashew sauce and piled with chunks of spiced butternut squash and roasted kale.

Butternut Squash & Kale Tacos With Cashew Crema

Source: I Thought There Would Be Free Food

Makes: At least 12 tacos

Total Time: ~45 minutes

Ingredients:

  • 1 cup raw cashews
  • ~2 pounds butternut squash, weighed before peeling and seeding
  • Olive oil
  • 2 teaspoons ground cumin
  • 2 teaspoons chili powder
  • Salt, to taste
  • 1 bunch kale
  • Juice of 1 lemon
  • Tortillas, for serving

Directions:

  • Put the cashews in a small bowl, glass or metal, and pour in just enough boiling water to cover the cashews. Set the bowl aside.
  • Prepare the kale: de-rib and chop it into thin ribbons 1–2 inches long (save those ribs for Kale Stem Pesto!). Put the kale into a bowl and toss with a drizzle of olive oil and sprinkle with salt, to taste.
  • Peel and seed the squash, then slice into 1/2-inch cubes. Place in a large bowl and toss with a few glugs of olive oil, cumin powder, chili powder, and salt. Spread onto a large, greased cookie sheet, then pop into the oven and broil on low for about 10 minutes.
  • While the squash is broiling, make the cashew crema. Drain out half of the soaking water and put the cashews and remaining water into a blender or food processor with 1 tablespoon of lemon juice and salt to taste. Blend until smooth, adding additional water or lemon juice as needed to create a creamy sauce. Set aside.
  • Increase the broiler heat to high and broil the squash for an additional 3–5 minutes, or until it begins to caramelize.
  • Remove the cookie sheet from the oven, spread the kale on top of the squash and return the sheet to the oven to broil on high for 2–3 minutes. Watch it carefully to ensure the kale browns and doesn’t char. Once it has browned, remove the sheet from the oven and stir the veggies to combine. Enjoy the squash–kale mixture in tortillas with the cashew crema.